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2-4 Days till due date

17 Apr

Ok, I better get this down, because I’ve been busy (…busy not being in labor, that is!).

I’ve been getting up and getting beautified in the morning, in hopes that labor will decide to come on when I am well rested, well dressed, and well made up with my hair and face. I think that is the most annoying thing.  I feel like I am getting ready for a date and I am just sitting around waiting for my date to arrive at my house to pick me up… And I’m starting to think my date is standing me up. Has that happened to any ladies? You get super beautiful and spend 2.5 hours getting ready for a date, and you get stood up? That depicts my feelings at the moment.

Two days ago, I just prepared the house (at turtle speed) for mom’s arrival.  I accomplished very little, but the house was presentable by the time she arrived. Nothing too exciting happened during the day. 

That night, I had a cortisol rush and was unable to fall asleep for several hours. After I finally fell asleep, I only slept for maybe 2 hours, then I woke up and was unable to sleep. I decided to get out of bed at around 3am and read. I finally got a bit drowsy and thought I would have success falling asleep, so I returned to my bed at 4:30am. I was unable to fall asleep until after Fernando got up for work, which was at 6am that morning. I finally drifted off to sleep and was awakened at 6:40am by the sound of the children chatting with each other in the monitor. I was so bummed that I got woken up, and I was beyond exhausted for the entire day. And because I was so tired, I skipped the coffee (because I just couldn’t even think in the morning). 

Yesterday, 3 days till my due date, we went to my prenatal appointment. Right before leaving for my appointment I lost a big chunk of my music plug. I was dreamily wishing that I would arrive to my appointment and be at 5cm and baby would come that afternoon. 

At my appointment, we discovered that baby is presenting posterior, something that literally happened the night before. Baby had been facing my back but looking toward my left side for at least two months. S/he did not move out of that position, and days before I’m supposed to give birth, s/he decides to move to a less favorable position!  Silly baby. Midwife recommended hands and knees and cat/cow exercise. I felt boarderline depressed and frustrated when I learned that baby had moved. I thought, “If only baby had come one day earlier, things would have been better!” I have since come to terms with baby’s position (as of yesterday). I can still birth this baby. I can trust baby. I can trust my body. Babies can move! I feel like this is a test in my trust in my baby, my body, and God. 

Also, the juicy cervical news disappointed me for some reason. I only advanced 0.5cm from last week. I was 3cm yesterday and was 75% effaced. I know 3cm is more open than 2.5cm, but I feel like at this rate I will be pregnant for a few more months.

After my appointment, we headed to the mall.  My sister was determined that we were going to “shop this baby out.” I did spend quite a bit of time walking. Rebecca was wearing her pedometer and supposedly walked almost 5 miles yesterday. I was pretty pooped out after our day shopping. The fun part for me was that I found a top that I plan on wearing during labor, and I also got a light bathrobe for labor. Not only can I wear the robe in labor, but I really needed a light bathrobe for summertime. I wear my giant bathrobes all the time! 

Last night I decided to follow my bedtime routine a little bit more strictly, and I also took some benedryl. I slept really well, but I woke up around 1am and had period-like cramping in the style of contraction waves. They would come on every few minutes and last for a few minutes. I got up to pee probably 3 times in less than two hours. I also had several stronger contractions sprinkled in, and I kept expecting to see a bloody show. I didn’t think that I was in labor at the moment, but I thought, “Oh, I bet this means that I will be starting labor and having a baby in the next 24 hours!” I decided to go to sleep, which was easy to do thanks to the benedryl, and I figured if I kept getting woken up by contractions, that it would mean that I probably had begun active labor.

I slept fitfully the rest of the night from 2am-ish until 7am. I felt happy and refreshed in the morning. The weather was absolutely crazy, so we decided to abandon our shopping plans for the morning. It was snowing, sleeting, hailing, raining, and thundering. By late morning, mom and Rebecca went shopping and I stayed home with the kids. They got home right after I put the kids down for a nap. The only thing I did while they were gone was run up and down the stairs 10 times, and hands and knees, and dance with the kiddos.

In the afternoon, Rebecca and I set out to look to exchange out some of our body jewelry. I got a pink nose ring with a bigger stud than what I had before. Then we went to another place because Rebecca decided she wanted to get a tragus piercing. That took a really long time, but the bonus is that after 5 years, I added a little bling to my tragus piercing and exchanged out my dull silver ball with a pretty iridescent pearly one. 

After we changed out all our bling, we headed to a nail salon by my house to get a pedicure. After spending forever trying to figure out which colors we wanted, I sat down and realized it would be a super long wait until we were able to get our pedicure, and we only had about an hour until dinnertime. We decided to make an appointment first thing tomorrow morning. Rebecca was quite distressed that I might end up not pedicured for labor, and I said, “If I go in to labor and don’t have a pedicure, I don’t think I will be complaining at this point!” After that, we quickly walked to the grocery store next door and grabbed a few things plus a Starbucks coffee. We got home, ate dinner, hot pie, and ice cream, then played with the kids. That has been my day/past few days!


5 days till due date

14 Apr

Today I woke up and my immediate thought was how well I felt!  I laid in bed for a good 15 minutes, trying to decide if I had been healed of my infirmity. Nose? Feeling clear and not bone dry. Throat? Clear and happy! Sinuses? (wiggling my facial muscles) Free of obstruction. Body? Refreshed; not achey. Slight discomfort in the pelvis. Ear? Feeling better than when I’m not sick! After using great momentum to throw my legs in order to exit my bed, I realized that I still had slight congestion in my sinuses, but it felt like nothing I couldn’t handle!

I went to work and accomplished very little. I am feeling like I only have two speeds: turtle speed, and snail  speed. I decided when I woke up that I was going to take my time getting ready. It was so nice to not have to shout frantically, “Hurry up!” or “Fast, fast!” or “Let’s go!” at the kids this morning. We just did our thing and I kept my blood pressure down. 

Climbing in to the backseat of the van to buckle and unbuckle the kids was a task today. I lost the pep in my step to jump easily in to the back seat. I am comforted by the fact that I do not have to buckle or unbuckle those kids any more while pregnant!

I have been mentally distracted today as well.  I have been daydreaming about what my mom and sister are doing and feeling, and imagining the next 24 hours. In my imagination, I see myself cleaning the house somewhat leisurely, all the while my mom and sister are driving westward in to the setting sun. 

I also feel absolutely exhausted today. Everything feels like a huge chore. I meant to make a to-do list while at work today, but I couldn’t even do that. It is difficult to explain. I don’t necessarily feel tired. I just feel like I can’t make my body move the way I want it to. I would much rather just crawl in to bed.

Speaking of my bed, after my kids took an eternity to eat lunch and I put them in bed for a nap, I decided to forego trying to start my afternoon with a nap, and I opted to turn on the Relaxation track from the Hypnobirthing: The Mongan Method book’s CD.  If you have read any of my previous posts on hypnobirthing, you will note that I have an electronic copy of the book, which was great to get access to the reading material, but I suspected for along time that I was missing out on a CD that was mentioned a lot in the book. I actually decided to borrow a copy of the book from the library, and I discovered that the book does come with a CD! There are only two tracks on the CD; one is a relaxation track, and the other is about welcoming baby. I actually have not listened to the second track. 

I love the relaxation track so much. There were a few times that I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t get back to sleep, or a few afternoons I was feeling too accelerated to sleep, and I turned on this track and felt incredibly rested and relaxed in only 20 minutes. Words are such a powerful thing!

I really only have a few things left on my to-do list, and I am trying to decide if I want to do them tonight (with the help and mental support of my darling husband), or if I want to leave them for tomorrrow. They are:

  • Vaccuum upstairs and downstairs
  • Wash kitchen linens
  • Wash pillows and backpacks on delicate cycle
  • Put away the 4 baskets of clean laundry
  • Wash kitchen floor
  • File filing cabinet junk
  • Online shop – I need to get nursing nightgowns and amber dropper bottles for my placenta tincture I am planning on making (yep, not only am I encapsulating my placenta again, I am making a tincture, too!)
  • Tidy up the storage bins which are in our downstairs living room – right now I have girl and boy newborn clothes out and washed, and I just need to make it look… nicer.
  • Make the downstairs bathroom useable (I have been using the shower to store stuff, but I just realized I’m going to have a pretty full house of people next week, so I think I need to clear it out).
  • Clean the main bathroom. Ask mom to scrub the tub, though.

Mentally, I feel ready for baby! I will actually venture to say that I want baby out now. But, I do want baby to wait until my mom and sister arrive. So, baby, please start making your appearance in the next 24-48 hours. Thursday morning at around 10am would be a perfect time to begin labor. Can you check your schedule and confirm your availability? Thanks.

Oh, and check out the picture. Is it just me, or do I look ridiculously pregnant?  And this was T-2 minutes until I crawled in to bed, so that is why my bed is a rumpled mess still.


6 days till due date

13 Apr

Tonight, I feel like my belly and my abdominal muscles just cannot stretch any further. I feel very maxed out.

Last night, while sleeping, I noticed a distinct difference between my ease of movement at the moment compared to just 24 hours earlier. I was struggling to move from side to side. I struggled to get up to go to the bathroom. And while I was struggling, I felt the extreme cracking sensation in my pubic bones. It is almost enough for me to feel like complaining, but not quite. 

Another symptom I forgot to mention was that for the past two nights I have been getting up to pee a lot. I think I got up twice one night and three times another night. This is a big increase for me, as I had several beautiful weeks of not getting up once to pee!  It is a truly miraculous thing to sleep the whole night through while in the 3rd trimester.

As far as my illness goes, I felt bad upon waking up this morning, but I also felt well rested, even though I woke up at 6:30am. The kids stayed asleep until 7:15am and almost 8am, and then we just hung out in my bed for awhile. Once they were done snuggling, we had breakfast, we tidied up the kitchen and they were playing pretend. They happened to label me as a dragon-dinosaur, which left me feeling slightly offended 😉 I felt like a lumbering beast.

After the kitchen was cleaned up, I put a VeggieTales video on for them and took a nap. My nap was only about 20-30 minutes, but it felt really long! I still didn’t feel much better after napping, though. After the video, the kids played outside, then I got lunch together. I remembered that I had some bone broth in the freezer, so I defrosted that, chopped up some raw garlic, and spiced the broth with salt, pepper, and a dash of hot sauce, and drank in the delicious and healing liquid. 

After lunch, the kids both actually fell asleep during nap time, and I drank some tea and rested. I was quite surprised that I was unable to fall asleep, but I felt so amazingly well after the broth, tea, and the elderberry syrup that I took, that I felt borderline well! I did a little bit of administration stuff for work, and then I contemplated folding laundry, but I anticipated that we could watch one of our shows this evening and I could put clothes away while watching. However, it is already 8:30pm, and it is about too late for me to want to start watching an hour-long show.

I felt pretty optimistic this afternoon because I feel like I might avoid getting a full blown sickness. Plus, I kept my house clean ALL day long. The kitchen stayed clean from morning until evening! Plus, my clean sheets are just extra beautiful and my decluttered areas make me feel so much more peaceful.

Tomorrow I go in to work, but I am planning on leaving later and taking our time getting ready to go out the door. I’m not even sure if there is much more I can do, since in my head I planned tomorrow to be my last day to go to work before baby is born. And, I had the goal of getting everything done for my “maternity leave” by last week. I guess I did a good job of meeting my work goals since I won’t have much to do!

38 Weeks Pregnant

4 Apr

All right! My super busy and hectic week is over! Phew!

My pregnancy brain has been severe this past week.  I have been forgetting things constantly, and I have even been having issues forming coherent sentences.  It is extremely frustrating.

I still feel absolutely wonderful and happily pregnant. Yesterday I was at home all day and felt really cranky because I had a lot to do but didn’t have much motivation. I would describe it as an end-of-pregnancy crankiness feeling; I feel depressed and cranky for no good reason.

The biggest highlight of my week in pregnancy world was that I slept amazingly every single night!  A few nights I didn’t go to bed until 11pm, but I actually slept in every day!  My normal waking time was about 6:30am. It is so much nicer than waking up at 4am.  I think I even slept in until 7:15am two days this week. Yay, body!  Keep up the good work!

The weirdest, or most difficult thing that I experienced this week was a night of crazy movement from baby, which was accompanied by severe stabbing pain in my cervix, as well as my thighs and back on occasion. I think the baby must have smuggled a knife in to the womb and was stabbing me constantly. My midwife told me that the sensation frequently can mean dilation is happening.

I was expecting to get a cervical check at my appointment this week, but my midwife didn’t do one.  I am so used to getting checked starting at 36 weeks that this is new to me!  Usually I am about 3cm dilated at this point.  My midwife said she will “probably” check me next week.  I actuallly hope she does, since I will be almost 39 weeks.  I really would like to know if I am super dilated like I normally am.

One thing that I hate about the end of pregnancy is how fat my arms look. So, in order to combat my sausage arms being preserved in photos, I decided to start lifting weights.  I know I should have done this all of my pregnancy, but I totally forgot that we had free weights at home until just the other week. I lifted weights 4 days this week!  If I am pregnant another two full weeks, I think that the lifting can make a small, noticable difference!

I still feel like baby’s birthday is quite awhile away.  However, when I think about the possibility of baby coming any day, like tomorrow, or the following day, I feel pretty incredulous, but I have been trying to tell myself that it is possible. I am so mentally fixed on baby coming on time that I will flip out if baby comes early (as in next week some time!). While I have a history of going in to labor right on time, I told my midwife this week that I am starting to suspect that I will be birthing this baby past my due date, since I am feeling so good, both mentally and physically. I don’t really think I will reach that fed up stage before April 19th, my due date, and I think that the fed up stage usually is a prerequisite to labor, right? Or maybe since I am wise in my old age, I have surpassed the need for bitterness to get labor started. 

Speaking of labor, tonight I did have three rather intense contractions. They were so close to labor contractions, but just a hair under labor. For the worst contraction, I thought, “If these continue and if I have any blood at all, then I am in labor.” However, they did not stick around. I know that each day shall be more intense, as each day brings me close to my baby’s birth day. I have realized that labor prep takes place the whole last month of pregnancy (at least in my case). It is beautiful that each day my body gently pulls me closer to active labor. 

I suppose I should start trying to keep a pre-labor log of my activities.  I don’t know why, but I just love to remember what mundane tasks I was doing right before going in to labor. I think next week I might try to do a log every 2-3 days, and when I hit 39 weeks I will try to do a daily log.

Lastly, I have been thanking God that I am still healthy and that I don’t have a cold, I don’t have the flu, I don’t have sinus issues, and I don’t have respiratory issues. I have been praying so hard that I remain healthy for labor, unlike battling sickness for weeks during my last labor. I am so thankful that God has provided good health these past few weeks!

Quickly, a log of this week:

I worked and went shopping to have meals to cook up until my mom arrives, and also for this Easter weekend. We went to a baby shower and received lots of cute little baby items! I defaulted to homemade pizza (for the 3rd time this month), corn dogs (for the second time this month), and breakfast for dinner during the week. Because of that, the food that I planned to cook this past week is still waiting to be cooked for next week… talk about easy menu planning!  Yay! I went to the dentist and the kids went to storytime at the library. I spent a good bit of time doing work stuff and trying to get ahead (which, I am not anywhere near on-schedule as I was planning to be!  That means that this next week is going to be more hectic than I anticipated). I completed my freezer meal exchage with friends, so I have about 10 meals that came out of the exchange. I also made several pans of lasagna… but I think I might have done that last week. Today we had a Seder meal, plus I made egg cassserole for tomorrow as well as a pan of stuffed raspberry french toast, and an extra pan for the freezer!

34 Weeks Pregnant

5 Mar

After two weeks or so of waking up for the day before 5am, this past week I had several days where I SLEPT IN until my alarm rang!  On one morning that we didn’t have anywhere to go, I actually slept in until 7:45am. I can’t believe I consider 7:45am to be sleeping in.  But it felt absolutely delicious. Not only have I been sleeping in, but I have been sleeping WELL.  I haven’t felt super uncomfortable at night (for the past few weeks the baby seemed to be burrowing painfully in to the top sides of my uterus while I was sleeping). I feel SO GOOD.  I LOVE 3rd trimester! I’m not sure if I felt quite this good with my last two pregnancies.

In spite of sleeping extremely well this past week, I have still been very tired. I think I took 2 or 3 naps this week, and one of those naps was like an hour and 20 minutes. Oh! How I love to sleep!  And I will feel no guilt for laying around. Plenty of people advise pregnant ladies to “sleep while they can,” right? So I am just taking advantage of that!

In the midst of me feeling so happy with how wonderful I feel, I thought, “Wow, I think my most annoying symptom this pregnancy is the part where I get dizzy/fuzzy feeling when I am inclined on my back.” Then I remembered that I was rather miserable for almost 2 whole trimesters with nausea and digestive pain. So, I suppose the worst symptom of my third trimester is the vena cava issue. Because of that, I just might remember this as my favorite pregnancy! 

32 & 33 Weeks Pregnant

27 Feb

I really meant to write an update for 31 weeks, but the weekend just slipped past me. However, these last two weeks blend nicely together as far as pregnancy symptoms go.

I have been feeling more and more like a turtle, where, when I try to get up or move around when laying down, I’m rolling around and desperately trying to switch positions.

I have been sleeping extremely well and cannot believe that I haven’t been getting up to pee at all in the middle of the night!  I think my body thinks it is sleeping too well, however, because I have been waking up before 6am bright eyed and bushy tailed. I usually try to lay in bed and at least rest for awhile, but this morning was a bit more extreme.  I layed in bed for about a half an hour and finally looked at my clock and it was only 4:15am. I felt extremely rested and figured I might as well get up and do something productive. So, I unloaded the dishes, made a super yummy mango-avocado smoothie, and am currently in the process of making yogurt.

I also have gotten quite a bit more colostrum in in the past few days. I can easily squeeze out a bunch, although I am a bit nervous that I’ll be squeezing and looking and get majorly squirted in the eye.  But I don’t think that will happen until after the birth, but I could be surprised. Emmanuel has been almost like a newborn again in these past few days. I ask him if he is getting milk and if it is yummy, and he always says yes.  I guess he is enjoying this increased amount of colostrum. I was really enjoying our breast feeding relationship of nursing twice a day since my milk has dried up (well, I didn’t ever enjoy the pain, but I enjoyed the frequency). It just seemed balanced and normal. I have enjoyed the extra snuggling while nursing these past few days, but I’ve caught myself on several occasions staring blankly in to space while sitting on the couch, feeling exactly as I do when nursing a newborn: chained to the chair. And although the pain has decreased significantly since my milk initially dried up, it still isn’t super comfortable. I am not entirely sure if the discomfort is due to the fact that he uses his top teeth when he latches, or because I don’t have an ample supply of milk. I think it is due to the latter. I hope it is due to the latter. Only 7 more weeks of this!

This morning when I woke up, I think I couldn’t fall back asleep because I realized that today is Friday. That means I only have 3 weeks until spring break. After spring break, I only have 3 weeks until my due date. Even though there are a whole 7 weeks left of pregnancy, breaking it up in to 3, 1, and 3 weeks is making me feel FrEaKeD OUT! I have to file my taxes! I don’t know who is going to do it. I have to hire a new person at work. I have to NEST!  I have to buy Gentle Birth tincture. I have to clear my fridge of the yucky freezer meals I made in the fall and stock them with yummy freezer meals! I have to sleep while I can! I have to find an easy-to-read book series that I can read while totally sleep deprived. I have to investigate how to tandem nurse.  I have to exercise…

The last major symptom of the past few weeks has been an increase of hot flashes. Major hot flashes. I have never had real hot flashes until this pregnancy. And while I think menopause hot flashes are probably more extreme, I think I am getting a good preview.

Every day I become more in love with this absolutely sweet little baby. The baby just seems so happy inside my womb and I can best describe its movements as pleasant and content. I’m am excited to meet baby, but not too eager just yet!


18 weeks pregnant

16 Nov

This past week, I fell in love with life! I finally felt almost normal, and I think I am out of my super cranky first trimester stage.

A day or two before officially turning 17 weeks, I felt baby obviously moving in my tummy, and it was several times during the day. There hasn’t been a day that has gone by where I don’t feel LOTS of movement! I am so baffled at how I one day I feel basically nothing, and the next my whole life is changed by a constantly thumping little babe.

I know in my head how much I love feeling baby move inside me (with a few uncomfortable exceptions here and there!), but I forgot how enthralling it really feels to have pleasant evidence of a little human baking inside my belly.

With consistent and strong fetal movement comes the realization that this stuff is real. Last night I was laying in bed, enjoying the little kicks, punches, and thumps and reflecting on how I was 18 weeks pregnant. I had the following self monologue: Wow. Being 18 weeks pregnant means that I am just two weeks away from the halfway mark of pregnancy (even less than two weeks from halfway if I use my past pregnancies as a guideline of when I go in to labor). Wait. I’m almost halfway done? Wait… there’s a person in there? WAIT. I’M GOING TO HAVE THREE KIDS!?!?!?! How did this happen?!!!!!!!!

So, I had my first minor freak out last night about becoming a mom of three. It is extra difficult to imagine being a capable mother of three after suffering four months of misery and barely surviving. Because I was feeling so ill the past few months, I feel like I am not quite myself and I’ve exchanged my good habits for negative habits that come with first trimester illness (like having no desire to get dolled up, living by the seat of my pants when answering the question “What’s for dinner?”, and pining after the desire to eat food, or at least break bread with friends and family without wanting to curl up in a ball and cry from disgust). Now that I have experienced one week of normalcy, my brain is finally functioning sufficiently where I can project my thoughts further than the next few hours. That, paired with reflecting on life the past few months left me feeling unnecessarily panicked. Thankfully, babies do take 10 lunar months to develop, and I still have a few more months to prepare. In addition, I know my kids will change a lot in just a few months. They will be more mature and more capable in areas. As a family, we will be more ready for another member in 5 months. Our baby is not joining us tomorrow. Each of us still have time to grow in these next few months, not just our baby in utero.

During my symbolic frolicking through the meadows of sunny 18 weeks, I have only had two slight stumbles. The first is that breastfeeding gets worse with every feeding. I adjusted my goal to make it to Emmanuel’s 2nd birthday, which is less than two weeks away. However, I keep readjusting my goal. I just need to make it until tomorrow. I just need to make it through the next feeding. Maybe this will be the last latch. In addition, yesterday I realized that I literally cannot squeeze out one drop of milk, whereas I was able to a few weeks ago. With each painful latch, I am more ready to lay this breastfeeding relationship to rest.

The second downside of this week was just this morning. I decided to have a tiny cup of coffee. I only filled it 3/4 of the way full. Before drinking it, I made sure to drink a full cup of water and to eat as well. By this afternoon I was feeling the same pains I was feeling the other week, and haven’t been able to eat since lunch (even though I really really really want to). It’s silly to say, but I am grieving the fact that I cannot have any coffee at all. I understand not being able to have a pot of coffee. I understand backing off and not drinking coffee every day. But the fact that I cannot (possible EVER) drink a half of a cup of coffee once in a while is a difficult thing to accept. Coffee has been my friend for many years. Over the course of a few months, coffee has become evil. It is difficult to accept.

In spite of those difficulties, I fully expect to be enraptured in pregnancy bliss for the next few months!