Archive | April, 2015

1 day till due date

18 Apr

Well, today MIGHT just be baby’s birthday!  If not, I am pretty sure baby will at least be here on his/her due date.

I woke up this morning around 5am. I don’t remember if I went pee or if I had a contraction that woke me. All I know is that I had three pretty intense contractions in a row and decided that maybe I should start timing my contractions and that maybe labor was starting. I looked at my phone and saw it was 5:33am. I waited for my next contraction. And waited. I gave up on waiting for a contraction and just relaxed in bed like I normally do. Finally at 6am I had another contraction. I didn’t grab my phone to time them, but I had 3 contractions in 15 minutes. I decided to get up to go pee again and tell mom that I was maybe in labor. As I was peeing, mom was carrying a crying Emmanuel up the stairs. I quickly wiped and noticed that I didn’t have a chunk of mucus plug, but I did have lots of mucus when I wiped, if that makes sense. It wasn’t a chunk, it was just like a lot of cervical fluid. A lot.

I went to attend to my crying baby. Usually if he is crying in the morning, he says that he is so sad and it is because he wants mommy. But this morning he said he had an owie. Oh great. I latched him on and when I asked him where his owie was, he pointed to his ear. Oh brother. Not an ear infection!

I didn’t feed him for a super long time, and I don’t remember if I had any contractions while nursing him or not. I just remember he popped off suddenly (I think he had overheard something enticing), and he said, “Mommy! I’m HAPPY!” Sweet baby…

I grabbed some coffee, the kiddos were running around, mom was chatting with dad on the phone, and at 6:45am I was just thinking about how funny it was that I might be in labor, but I hadn’t gotten to tell anyone the story.

I went to the bathroom at 7:15am, and I think at this point I still hadn’t explained to anyone that I thought I might be in labor. I saw that I was having a bloody show, and yelled out excitedly, “There’s blood!!!!! I’m in LABOR!” Right as I was screaming, Rebecca came out of her room totally asleep, and I repeated my exciting news. The next few hours were quite humorous. I only had about 3-4 contractions an hour. I sat down after my excitement to drink another cup of coffee, and I was chided by mom and Beck for not rushing in to the shower first. I drudgingly abandoned my cup of coffee and showered first, since I was the priority person of the day. I spent a lot of time wandering around the house aimlessly while I was trying to get ready. I was trying to text my VIPs that I was in labor while getting ready and packing some of my last minute items in my suitcase. I knew I wasn’t ready to go to the hospital, but I knew I just needed to get ready and then spend the rest of the morning laboring. Rebecca and I had made appointments to get manicures and pedicures at 9:30am. I was planning on canceling the appointment, but then realized that with only a few contractions an hour, I had plenty of time to get my nails done. 

After we determined that we were going to keep our appointments, we rushed around looking for mom’s car keys… since we were unable to find them we took our van. We arrived at the nail salon 5 minutes late. There were 3 people working, and 3 customers already getting worked on, even though they had only been open for 5 minutes. I sheepishly mentioned that we were here for our 9:30am appointment, and sat down to wait our turn. I figured that they wouldn’t honor our appointments, but within two minutes we were in the pedicure chairs. It was nice to get that done, but I was a little bummed when I realized that I had only had 2 contractions in about 2 hours of the whole mani/pedi experience. 

We arrived home and ate lunch. I had a pickled egg and cereal (for breakfast I’d had 2 scrambled eggs). I ran up and down the stairs 10 times in hopes to get something moving. In the early morning, I figured that things would get moving by midday, and that it was possible that I’d have the baby in my arms by 3pm or 5 pm. However, it was almost noon and things had slowed down, and I started thinking that baby probably wouldn’t arrive until the late evening.

After lunch, I decided to get my double electric pump out and I pumped for 20 minutes. I only had one contraction during that whole time. After I finished, I put Emmanuel down for a nap, and I had one good contraction while he nursed. I decided that I did want to nap, and I thought, “Oh well if it makes the contractions even more spaced apart.” I felt pretty helpless that things weren’t really moving. I took about a 45 minute nap but got some really great contractions during that time. In an hour of time, I had 5 really strong contrations. I’ve had maybe 2 or 3 since then, so I guess when I look at the numbers things are progressing, but it still seems very slow to me. 

I’m not timing my contractions officially yet. I’m just trying to count how many I have each hour. I am hoping that things pick up soon! I do think that once they get going that it will almost be baby time!


2-4 Days till due date

17 Apr

Ok, I better get this down, because I’ve been busy (…busy not being in labor, that is!).

I’ve been getting up and getting beautified in the morning, in hopes that labor will decide to come on when I am well rested, well dressed, and well made up with my hair and face. I think that is the most annoying thing.  I feel like I am getting ready for a date and I am just sitting around waiting for my date to arrive at my house to pick me up… And I’m starting to think my date is standing me up. Has that happened to any ladies? You get super beautiful and spend 2.5 hours getting ready for a date, and you get stood up? That depicts my feelings at the moment.

Two days ago, I just prepared the house (at turtle speed) for mom’s arrival.  I accomplished very little, but the house was presentable by the time she arrived. Nothing too exciting happened during the day. 

That night, I had a cortisol rush and was unable to fall asleep for several hours. After I finally fell asleep, I only slept for maybe 2 hours, then I woke up and was unable to sleep. I decided to get out of bed at around 3am and read. I finally got a bit drowsy and thought I would have success falling asleep, so I returned to my bed at 4:30am. I was unable to fall asleep until after Fernando got up for work, which was at 6am that morning. I finally drifted off to sleep and was awakened at 6:40am by the sound of the children chatting with each other in the monitor. I was so bummed that I got woken up, and I was beyond exhausted for the entire day. And because I was so tired, I skipped the coffee (because I just couldn’t even think in the morning). 

Yesterday, 3 days till my due date, we went to my prenatal appointment. Right before leaving for my appointment I lost a big chunk of my music plug. I was dreamily wishing that I would arrive to my appointment and be at 5cm and baby would come that afternoon. 

At my appointment, we discovered that baby is presenting posterior, something that literally happened the night before. Baby had been facing my back but looking toward my left side for at least two months. S/he did not move out of that position, and days before I’m supposed to give birth, s/he decides to move to a less favorable position!  Silly baby. Midwife recommended hands and knees and cat/cow exercise. I felt boarderline depressed and frustrated when I learned that baby had moved. I thought, “If only baby had come one day earlier, things would have been better!” I have since come to terms with baby’s position (as of yesterday). I can still birth this baby. I can trust baby. I can trust my body. Babies can move! I feel like this is a test in my trust in my baby, my body, and God. 

Also, the juicy cervical news disappointed me for some reason. I only advanced 0.5cm from last week. I was 3cm yesterday and was 75% effaced. I know 3cm is more open than 2.5cm, but I feel like at this rate I will be pregnant for a few more months.

After my appointment, we headed to the mall.  My sister was determined that we were going to “shop this baby out.” I did spend quite a bit of time walking. Rebecca was wearing her pedometer and supposedly walked almost 5 miles yesterday. I was pretty pooped out after our day shopping. The fun part for me was that I found a top that I plan on wearing during labor, and I also got a light bathrobe for labor. Not only can I wear the robe in labor, but I really needed a light bathrobe for summertime. I wear my giant bathrobes all the time! 

Last night I decided to follow my bedtime routine a little bit more strictly, and I also took some benedryl. I slept really well, but I woke up around 1am and had period-like cramping in the style of contraction waves. They would come on every few minutes and last for a few minutes. I got up to pee probably 3 times in less than two hours. I also had several stronger contractions sprinkled in, and I kept expecting to see a bloody show. I didn’t think that I was in labor at the moment, but I thought, “Oh, I bet this means that I will be starting labor and having a baby in the next 24 hours!” I decided to go to sleep, which was easy to do thanks to the benedryl, and I figured if I kept getting woken up by contractions, that it would mean that I probably had begun active labor.

I slept fitfully the rest of the night from 2am-ish until 7am. I felt happy and refreshed in the morning. The weather was absolutely crazy, so we decided to abandon our shopping plans for the morning. It was snowing, sleeting, hailing, raining, and thundering. By late morning, mom and Rebecca went shopping and I stayed home with the kids. They got home right after I put the kids down for a nap. The only thing I did while they were gone was run up and down the stairs 10 times, and hands and knees, and dance with the kiddos.

In the afternoon, Rebecca and I set out to look to exchange out some of our body jewelry. I got a pink nose ring with a bigger stud than what I had before. Then we went to another place because Rebecca decided she wanted to get a tragus piercing. That took a really long time, but the bonus is that after 5 years, I added a little bling to my tragus piercing and exchanged out my dull silver ball with a pretty iridescent pearly one. 

After we changed out all our bling, we headed to a nail salon by my house to get a pedicure. After spending forever trying to figure out which colors we wanted, I sat down and realized it would be a super long wait until we were able to get our pedicure, and we only had about an hour until dinnertime. We decided to make an appointment first thing tomorrow morning. Rebecca was quite distressed that I might end up not pedicured for labor, and I said, “If I go in to labor and don’t have a pedicure, I don’t think I will be complaining at this point!” After that, we quickly walked to the grocery store next door and grabbed a few things plus a Starbucks coffee. We got home, ate dinner, hot pie, and ice cream, then played with the kids. That has been my day/past few days!

5 days till due date

14 Apr

Today I woke up and my immediate thought was how well I felt!  I laid in bed for a good 15 minutes, trying to decide if I had been healed of my infirmity. Nose? Feeling clear and not bone dry. Throat? Clear and happy! Sinuses? (wiggling my facial muscles) Free of obstruction. Body? Refreshed; not achey. Slight discomfort in the pelvis. Ear? Feeling better than when I’m not sick! After using great momentum to throw my legs in order to exit my bed, I realized that I still had slight congestion in my sinuses, but it felt like nothing I couldn’t handle!

I went to work and accomplished very little. I am feeling like I only have two speeds: turtle speed, and snail  speed. I decided when I woke up that I was going to take my time getting ready. It was so nice to not have to shout frantically, “Hurry up!” or “Fast, fast!” or “Let’s go!” at the kids this morning. We just did our thing and I kept my blood pressure down. 

Climbing in to the backseat of the van to buckle and unbuckle the kids was a task today. I lost the pep in my step to jump easily in to the back seat. I am comforted by the fact that I do not have to buckle or unbuckle those kids any more while pregnant!

I have been mentally distracted today as well.  I have been daydreaming about what my mom and sister are doing and feeling, and imagining the next 24 hours. In my imagination, I see myself cleaning the house somewhat leisurely, all the while my mom and sister are driving westward in to the setting sun. 

I also feel absolutely exhausted today. Everything feels like a huge chore. I meant to make a to-do list while at work today, but I couldn’t even do that. It is difficult to explain. I don’t necessarily feel tired. I just feel like I can’t make my body move the way I want it to. I would much rather just crawl in to bed.

Speaking of my bed, after my kids took an eternity to eat lunch and I put them in bed for a nap, I decided to forego trying to start my afternoon with a nap, and I opted to turn on the Relaxation track from the Hypnobirthing: The Mongan Method book’s CD.  If you have read any of my previous posts on hypnobirthing, you will note that I have an electronic copy of the book, which was great to get access to the reading material, but I suspected for along time that I was missing out on a CD that was mentioned a lot in the book. I actually decided to borrow a copy of the book from the library, and I discovered that the book does come with a CD! There are only two tracks on the CD; one is a relaxation track, and the other is about welcoming baby. I actually have not listened to the second track. 

I love the relaxation track so much. There were a few times that I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t get back to sleep, or a few afternoons I was feeling too accelerated to sleep, and I turned on this track and felt incredibly rested and relaxed in only 20 minutes. Words are such a powerful thing!

I really only have a few things left on my to-do list, and I am trying to decide if I want to do them tonight (with the help and mental support of my darling husband), or if I want to leave them for tomorrrow. They are:

  • Vaccuum upstairs and downstairs
  • Wash kitchen linens
  • Wash pillows and backpacks on delicate cycle
  • Put away the 4 baskets of clean laundry
  • Wash kitchen floor
  • File filing cabinet junk
  • Online shop – I need to get nursing nightgowns and amber dropper bottles for my placenta tincture I am planning on making (yep, not only am I encapsulating my placenta again, I am making a tincture, too!)
  • Tidy up the storage bins which are in our downstairs living room – right now I have girl and boy newborn clothes out and washed, and I just need to make it look… nicer.
  • Make the downstairs bathroom useable (I have been using the shower to store stuff, but I just realized I’m going to have a pretty full house of people next week, so I think I need to clear it out).
  • Clean the main bathroom. Ask mom to scrub the tub, though.

Mentally, I feel ready for baby! I will actually venture to say that I want baby out now. But, I do want baby to wait until my mom and sister arrive. So, baby, please start making your appearance in the next 24-48 hours. Thursday morning at around 10am would be a perfect time to begin labor. Can you check your schedule and confirm your availability? Thanks.

Oh, and check out the picture. Is it just me, or do I look ridiculously pregnant?  And this was T-2 minutes until I crawled in to bed, so that is why my bed is a rumpled mess still.


6 days till due date

13 Apr

Tonight, I feel like my belly and my abdominal muscles just cannot stretch any further. I feel very maxed out.

Last night, while sleeping, I noticed a distinct difference between my ease of movement at the moment compared to just 24 hours earlier. I was struggling to move from side to side. I struggled to get up to go to the bathroom. And while I was struggling, I felt the extreme cracking sensation in my pubic bones. It is almost enough for me to feel like complaining, but not quite. 

Another symptom I forgot to mention was that for the past two nights I have been getting up to pee a lot. I think I got up twice one night and three times another night. This is a big increase for me, as I had several beautiful weeks of not getting up once to pee!  It is a truly miraculous thing to sleep the whole night through while in the 3rd trimester.

As far as my illness goes, I felt bad upon waking up this morning, but I also felt well rested, even though I woke up at 6:30am. The kids stayed asleep until 7:15am and almost 8am, and then we just hung out in my bed for awhile. Once they were done snuggling, we had breakfast, we tidied up the kitchen and they were playing pretend. They happened to label me as a dragon-dinosaur, which left me feeling slightly offended 😉 I felt like a lumbering beast.

After the kitchen was cleaned up, I put a VeggieTales video on for them and took a nap. My nap was only about 20-30 minutes, but it felt really long! I still didn’t feel much better after napping, though. After the video, the kids played outside, then I got lunch together. I remembered that I had some bone broth in the freezer, so I defrosted that, chopped up some raw garlic, and spiced the broth with salt, pepper, and a dash of hot sauce, and drank in the delicious and healing liquid. 

After lunch, the kids both actually fell asleep during nap time, and I drank some tea and rested. I was quite surprised that I was unable to fall asleep, but I felt so amazingly well after the broth, tea, and the elderberry syrup that I took, that I felt borderline well! I did a little bit of administration stuff for work, and then I contemplated folding laundry, but I anticipated that we could watch one of our shows this evening and I could put clothes away while watching. However, it is already 8:30pm, and it is about too late for me to want to start watching an hour-long show.

I felt pretty optimistic this afternoon because I feel like I might avoid getting a full blown sickness. Plus, I kept my house clean ALL day long. The kitchen stayed clean from morning until evening! Plus, my clean sheets are just extra beautiful and my decluttered areas make me feel so much more peaceful.

Tomorrow I go in to work, but I am planning on leaving later and taking our time getting ready to go out the door. I’m not even sure if there is much more I can do, since in my head I planned tomorrow to be my last day to go to work before baby is born. And, I had the goal of getting everything done for my “maternity leave” by last week. I guess I did a good job of meeting my work goals since I won’t have much to do!

7 days until due date

12 Apr

Today we skipped church since I am not feeling well and the kids are still a bit under the weather. 

We had a leisurely breakfast together, and Fernando was on kitchen duty all day long. I can’t even tell you how wonderful it was to hardly do a dish and to not get up a million times to refill cups with milk and look for extra napkins. At about mid morning, I colored my hair, showered, and Fernando took the kids outside to play while I rested in bed. I just laid in bed but did not sleep. 

At noon, we reconvened for lunch, the kids got a bath, and took a nap. Once the kids were settled in their rooms, we both took a nap. When I had woken up this morning, I felt worse than I had felt yesterday. However, after my afternoon nap, I felt really refreshed and like my body was healing.

After naptime, I did some laundry and ate a bunch of chocolate. I am still at this moment craving chocolate like crazy! I reorganized the hospital suitcase, adjusted the infant carseat straps, decluttered our microwave stand (which is our problem area for clutter), decluttered our bedroom, and made up the bed with our extra set of sheets. Tomorrow, I will just have on my to-do list vacuuming and putting away laundry. Honestly, both of those tasks might just wait until Tuesday, depending on how I feel. My first priority is to lay around as much as possible and kick this cold to the curb. So, my to-do list for tomorrow might change to include drinking tea, taking a warm bath, and napping!

Today I felt about 3 more intense contractions in one hour. I compared my belly pictures from just before delivery with all three pregnancies, and based off of past belly pictures, I still have a bit to grow. My belly has felt enormously heavy all of a sudden in just the past two days. I also forgot to mention on my last update that the bones in my pubic area feel like they are expanding. Actually, they kind of just feel like they are cracking, but we will make it sound more pregnancy-official and say that they are relaxing and expanding. It still isn’t enough for me to complain about, but today I felt a burst of readiness for baby. I think that having the golden hour of cleanliness in my house paired with feeling mildly rested made me feel adventurous to tell fate that I am okay with baby coming tonight. 

39 weeks pregnant

10 Apr

This week shall be recorded as horrible in the category of life. Both kids were (and are) sick. I’ve been serving them a smorgasbord of immune boosters and medicines. On Monday, I was feeling like I was coming down with something.  However, we all spent the whole day resting and the following day I felt fine.  Last night, Emmanuel woke up and sounded horrible coughing. I was so worried about his breathing that I brought him to our bed (it was still early; it was only 8:15pm). To make a long story short, he was attached to my boob for hours and would not sleep. I finially decided that him being in our bed was more detrimental to his health, since he wasn’t sleeping, and I returned him to his crib. He became tranquil when we got to his room and fell asleep instantly. That was at midnight. Even though he finally went to sleep at midnight, he coughed a lot during the night and cried for an instant a few times, each time sending me running to his room to check on him. After his rough night, I was amazed that he woke up at 7:Stinking-AM. Because of this stint from the evening, I have felt very close to crossing the threshold into sickness all day long. My right ear is killing me. I have a buring in my chest. Just this evening my breathing has become more difficult. I have coughed a sick cough a few times today.

I am having major deja-vu of my last few days of being pregnant with Emmanuel, and I will be so upset if I am sick during labor again.

On Tuesday and Wednesday, I realized that I had been having a ton of Braxton Hicks contractions. I’ve had intense contractions for months, but usually only a few a day. This week was the first time I had a lot in a short period of time.  The contractions were actually pretty mild, though, so I wasn’t wondering if I was in labor or not. I did, however, have a very difficult time falling asleep because I was playing out the scenario of “what if this turns in to labor tonight?” I had no idea how I would cope with going in to labor that night with extremely sick children. All I can say is thank God that I did not go in to labor! As a few days have passed, and the kids’ sickness seemed somewhat managable tonight, I feel so much more at peace about going in to labor.

In the managable pregnancy symptoms category, I have had intermittent shooting pain in my back, down below, and legs on occassion, but especially at night. Wednesday night, the night that I was stressed about the thought of going in to labor that evening, I had several hours of crazy movement and shooting pain. I realized that evening that my mind becomes a total blank when I am faced with labor, and I cannot problem solve, nor think rationally. 

I am looking forward to sleeping well tonight. I pray that my body will repair itself!

Thursday I had my 39 week appoinment (although I was still shy of 39 weeks), and I learned that my OB office officially changed their policy to not do cervical checks until 39 weeks. The medical assistant asked if I would like to be checked, and I said that since I was almost 39 weeks and didn’t expect to make it to 40 weeks, it would be nice to know if I was dilated to 4cm like last pregnancy, or if I was 0cm. I was thinking that this information would help me know how quickly to go to the hospital if I start labor. The juicy news was that I was 2.5cm dilated, 60% effaced, and baby was at a -3 station. I’m not really disappointed, but I must say I was a little surprised. This is the least amount of progress I’ve had at this point in comparing my progress to my past pregnancies. I wonder if part of it is because I have been trying to relax as much as possible. I’ve done a few squats this week, but I honestly would like to increase the amount of squats. However, if I am sick, I don’t feel like doing anything.

My due date is still 9 days away. My mom arrives in 4 days. I am anticipating that baby arrives on April 16th or 17th. That is about one week away! I am so glad it is the weekend and that the reinforcements (my mom and sister) are arriving in just a few days. I feel like I can begin to rest and not worry about baby arriving “too early.”

Just like with Emmanuel, I am loving feeling this baby’s gentle movements and having baby with me 24/7. While I have been desiring baby to stay put even past my due date, I think I am finally ready to meet baby!

I suppose I better get started with my daily log of activities. I really want to do a post about my gender suspicions and why I have made deductions about baby’s gender. Hopefully I will get to it before baby arrives!


7 Apr

I am feeling fine.  I’m fine. I’M FINE, I TELL YOU! I was fine. Now I’m just really cranky. I have a deadline for all my work stuff to be completed by the end of this week, and I can’t seem to get myself together. So that makes me cranky.

I currently have two sick and whiny kids. I had them at my side while trying to get work done. Nothing gets done. No one is happy. Why do I try? Hmmm… let me see if I can think of the answer… Oh yeah, maybe because I’M HAVING A BABY NEXT WEEK! What delightful timing. That’s why I am cranky. I’m not cranky because I am still pregnant. I’m cranky because I have all this stuff to do and I know baby could be coming soon.  I mean, really soon. It could be tomorrow.  I don’t think it will be tomorrow, but with each day that passes, the probability increases! The things hanging over my head are making me cranky:

I have to find information for this deck stain we used a few years ago and redeem the guarantee/warrenty, because it is majorly chipping and is supposed to last like 25 years. I need to do this before I have a baby. I finally located the gallons of stain in a corner, buried under junk in the garage. I have to pull out the car from the garage. Cue irrational fear of moving the car more than 1 inch without having my kids buckled in their seats. It really is paralyzing, which is why I haven’t completed this seemingly simple task.

I have to fill out rebate information for our window installation. Problem here? Well, it shouldn’t be too difficult.  I was ready to follow the directions and mail the info out.  But the window company rep casually mentioned how it is difficult to get the rebate and that it is easier if I go to the utilities building to do it. Okay, right. Let me schedule that in around going in to labor, while towing around two sick kids. 

And the last thing making me really cranky? My sick kids that look absolutely horrible but refuse to nap. I can’t even tell you how much this raises my blood pressure. GO LAY DOWN AND REST, child!!!!!

So, I’m fine.  I’m a fine pregnant lady. I’m just cranky with life.